This has been a wild few weeks. Not that pleasant actually. My mother-in-law has been diagnosed with cancer around her eye and has her first round of chemo. Thankfully it went very well. The combo of steroids and chemo has already made a very noticeable difference in the size of the tumors (there are several) and the irritation level in her eye. 2 rounds to go then radiation and she may lose the sight in that eye, but she can at least open her eye again and we praise God for her great attitude and His healing. They believe this is the primary source of the cancer and they will get it all.
I have also had this ridiculous, large, raw, open growth on the end of my left ring finger. It has been so painful that I could not type (its the e-s finger y'know!).
I have had my first biopsy. First cauterization, and actually found out that that means BURNING YOUR FLESH and not what I had thought it meant.
I also found I have a place at the end of my left ring finger that is resistant to freezing. That means when you chop off something on the end of your finger and then torch it you find you can make a noise that you never thought possible.
This thing seeps stinky ooze through 3 or 4 bandages a day and hurts like fury if touched. Today I learned its benign which is wonderful. None of the doctors have seen anything like this before and they are all looking forward to seeing what it is. I personally don't care what it is (as long as its benign) I merely want it to go away.
Then, to top it off we are having some really wretched family issues going on here.
But ...
DO YOU KNOW WHAT????
This is very important. Please listen carefully.
Satan can attack and attack and attack. He can hurt you, distress you and keep coming back with more attacks BUT .... HE CAN NEVER, NEVER WIN!!!
God is bigger that all of this. His love is greater far than whatever hate Satan can come up with and His faithfulness endures forever.
Regardless of anything else God chose me and drew me to Himself. His son died for my sins. He has bought me with His own blood and marked me with the seal of His Holy Spirit that guarantees me an inheritance as His precious and well loved child.
Do you know what else matters?? NOTHING!
My thought on the book of Judges for the past weeks I have missed.
God uses whom He chooses. He allows all kinds of bad stuff to happen so that He may be glorified. Whether its a cowardly Benjamite whom God chooses as His mighty warrior, a mother in Israel who is a prophet and warrior, a woman with a tent, a glass of milk and a tent peg, a son of a hooker or a foolish and blind strong man. God's chooses whom He chooses for His own reasons.
Why has God chosen me for the particular path I'm walking today? I don't know. I'd sure love too though!! He chooses whom He will and my job is to be faithful and obedient. I've had it worse before and God has been faithful. For a little while the other day I was questioning if God remembered me at all, but still faithful He gave me someone to encourage and uplift me.... thanks Ang!!
God is good. Very good. He is absolutely worthy of our trust and praise. He is ever faithful and loving to us. He will never forsake me. I can fully rest in Him.
